Grief

31 weeks

Our little guy is 31 weeks this week. The weeks leading up to 31 weeks have been hard. Not because of what seemed to be the never ending morning sickness or the sleepless nights because I can never seem to get comfortable. It’s that everywhere I go it seems be be a constant reminder that […] Read more…

Baby # 2

It seems that Adeline’s going to be a big sister… We have known about this pregnancy since July, but with all the complications that followed Adeline’s pregnancy we wanted to store this up in our hearts until the time was right or when it became too hard to hide under oversized shirts and scrubs. This […] Read more…

Adeline’s Birthday Week

Lawson asked me if I was wearing a bow in my hair because Addie wore bows? I looked at him with a grin and said “maybe…” This week is Adeline’s birthday week. The week when parents plan a first birthday party, order a cute smash cake, and capture what it’s like for their baby to […] Read more…

He has RISEN

In the days leading up in this Easter holiday I’ve felt this weight, this heaviness that has been weighing me down. I think about the pain that we have suffered in losing our baby and just how much love God has for his people to let his only son die on the cross so we […] Read more…

Kitchen Reno

Before September, I thought my role was going to be caring for my baby as a somewhat stay at home mom. Now I’m a mom with no physical baby and it’s been a challenge to get back to my life before Adeline because my life is different. A couple of months ago I took a […] Read more…

These Days

Adeline would have been 8 months this week. I feel like every day is different without her. Some days I could go through the whole day just thinking of the good memories we had with her and other days it’s painful to even put my feet on the ground. It’s the waves of grief that […] Read more…

Jesus Wept

One of my favorite passages that I have really clung to in the past few months is the story of Lazarus. I feel like growing up in the church I’ve heard this story a million times, but it has given me new meaning with the passing of our sweet Adeline. The story is told in […] Read more…

Keep Walking

Holidays are hard for people who are grieving. Everywhere you look it feels like there’s another reminder that part of you is missing. This Christmas was going be our baby’s first Christmas. The one where all the distant family would finally get to meet our Adeline. Where I could play dress up with her and […] Read more…