One of my favorite passages that I have really clung to in the past few months is the story of Lazarus. I feel like growing up in the church I’ve heard this story a million times, but it has given me new meaning with the passing of our sweet Adeline.

The story is told in John 11.

Jesus had the power to heal Lazarus, but He knew that the story of Lazarus’ death was going to be to glory God (vs14). Jesus could have came right away when he heard the news that Lazarus was ill, but He waited in the place he was at. He knew that if he came to Lazarus when he was ill, that people would doubt his power. For he had already performed healing miracles. Once Lazarus passes He tells His disciples that they must go to him (vs 11-15). As Jesus is approaching the tomb of Lazarus, Martha came to met Him and basically said “if you were here, this wouldn’t have happened!! (vs 17-“22).”  Martha goes and gets Mary (vs 28-31). Mary leaves the tomb to go to Jesus and falls to His feet with the same words as her sister (vs 32). In Mary’s confusion and pain, she started weeping. I LOVE these next few verses!

” When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in his spirit and greatly troubled. And he said, “Where have you laid him?” They said to him, “Lord, come and see.” Jesus wept. “- John 11:33-35

Jesus was so troubled by the pain that Mary was feeling over the death of Lazarus, that it moved Him to tears. Jesus knows that Lazarus is going to walk out of the tomb, but He also knows that Mary and Martha can’t see that hope.

As I think about this story, I think of losing Adeline. Every day I have to die to the fact that I don’t get to do life with our baby girl. I don’t get to take my baby on a walk, watch her take her first steps, plan her first birthday, take her to the first day of school, watch her graduate, and grow up. Every day that death is painful because it’s not natural.

The bible says “The day you die is better than the day you are born.” It’s hard for our human minds to wrap around that because we are so now focused. It’s hard for us to see the hope that is to come. It’s so reassuring to me to know in times when I don’t understand and my heart is breaking that Jesus is there. He is at the tomb with me weeping because He’s hurt by the pain that death causes His people.

“And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” – Rev. 21:3-4



3 comments on “Jesus Wept”

  1. This is so beautiful, Katie. 💓 I could feel my eyes well up within the first few sentences. My heart feels for you on a level that I never knew before Josie. I admire your strength & bravery in sharing both Adeline’s story and your journey.

  2. Like you, I have heard this story bunches of times while growing up in church. For some reason, I have never thought to apply it to myself and realize that Jesus feels MY hurts. Thank you for sharing these words!

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